Letter to my Christian father
In the name of Allah The Most Merciful, The Compassionate.
Do you know my dearest father, we live far away from each other yet this last time you visited me was different: my feelings were more intense than previously, this maybe because we never bonded as a father and daughter should, we were like two foreigners despite having the same blood. But after your divorce you became closer to your family, and as a result I also started feeling closer towards you.
I thoroughly enjoyed your last visit, and it was absolutely beautiful and I thank God for giving me this opportunity to seeing you again, in this life.
Daddy I feel that you truly love me and as you stated, you admire my resolution and strength whenever we face difficult situations in life, but I assure you that this doesn’t come from me, because I was not born with the very qualities and characteristics you admire about me, such as being patient when someone close to me is harming me. I was never like this at all!! Daddy, you know very well what my life was like before and to what extent- I felt this extreme necessity of having to be loved by those around me. This was conditioned in me so much that I was trying to lessen this feeling by consuming alcohol, night outs, discos, and being in places which you didn’t know and with whom you didn’t know. This is how your daughter used to react to problems and difficulties, the same daughter who made you cry many many times, and who also attempted suicide more than once, yes daddy, this is the same daughter whose reactions you now praise and admire.
After those years without control over myself, God bestowed upon this daughter of yours His immense mercy and guided her to Islam and He, little by little made her start to change. My heart started to change and all that hidden need of wanting to be loved by others started to be directed to God only. Now I only desire God’s love alone, and believe me when I say this, when one starts to seek sanctuary in Allah Alone one can feel abundant reward in his heart.
My father, hold my hand, I want to invite you to travel with me today through this letter to know what made me leave atheism.
God says in the Glorious Quran:
إِنَّ رَبَّكُمُ ٱللَّهُ ٱلَّذِى خَلَقَ ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٲتِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضَ فِى سِتَّةِ أَيَّامٍ۬ ثُمَّ ٱسۡتَوَىٰ عَلَى ٱلۡعَرۡشِ
Indeed your Lord is Allah, Who created the heavens and the earth in Six Days, and then He rose over (Istawa) the Throne (really in a manner that suits His Majesty).
Quran, chapter 7, verse 54
So at that moment I was in a phase of understanding that there should be a purpose behind my creation and that I didn’t come from a monkey which one day said to itself I don’t want to be a monkey any longer and then it decided to become a person!!
God says in Quran:
ٱللَّهُ ٱلَّذِى خَلَقَ ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٲتِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضَ وَأَنزَلَ مِنَ ٱلسَّمَآءِ مَآءً۬ فَأَخۡرَجَ بِهِۦ مِنَ ٱلثَّمَرَٲتِ رِزۡقً۬ا لَّكُمۡۖ
Allah is He Who has created the heavens and the earth and sends down water (rain) from the sky, and thereby brought forth fruits as provision for you;
Quran chapter 14, verse 32
I understood that The One Who created me was God (Allah) and that He wouldn’t ever create me without a purpose nor would He leave me to myself, rather He protects me, grants me health, provides me constantly with food, with oxygen, and with the capability to breathe this oxygen, He provided me with parents who looked after me when I was small, nurtured me, and who got worried when I was sick- all of this, all of this is a part of His provision to me, but not only this! He makes my body digest food without me even having to command my body to do so, He makes my heart beat without having to command it to do it, and if only once He wouldn’t provide me with this, just once… then I would die!!
In that moment I understood that I won’t live forever, that my life will have an end and this could as well be in my 80’s or even 20’s. For this very reason I was convinced that I am here, in this life, for a reason without doubt.
Daddy, life has shown us all that death doesn’t discriminate, death takes the young as well as the old so the theory that your life ends when you are old is only but a false one! So now it is the time to act, since no one knows when they shall die.
Although I already understood this, still there was a missing piece of the puzzle here. I knew Who created me, and Who was providing for me, but… Why exactly was I created for?
God says in Quran:
وَمَا خَلَقۡتُ ٱلۡجِنَّ وَٱلۡإِنسَ إِلَّا لِيَعۡبُدُونِ
And I (Allah) created not the jinn and mankind except that they should worship Me (Alone).
Quran, chapter 51, verse 56
He, The Most High, says also:
يَـٰٓأَيُّہَا ٱلنَّاسُ ٱعۡبُدُواْ رَبَّكُمُ ٱلَّذِى خَلَقَكُمۡ وَٱلَّذِينَ مِن قَبۡلِكُمۡ لَعَلَّكُمۡ تَتَّقُونَ
O mankind! Worship your Lord (Allâh), Who created you and those who were before you so that you may become Al-Muttaqûn (the pious)
Quran, chapter 2, verse 21
I understand now!! I had been created solely to worship God (Allah) Alone!! Accordingly if Allah would have partners or offspring, for sure He would have commanded us to worship them also. However in this verse, He commanded me not to worship anyone except Him, and this is something clear and logical because since it is God (Allah) Alone Who created me, Who provides for me, nourishes me and sustains me, then surely He Alone deserves all my worship, my reverence, my love and yearning. So I now understood the aim of my life which is nothing except to worship Allah (God) without associating anything to Him. And thus it became clear now that associating a son to Him goes against the aim by which we had been created as Allah says in Quran:
لَمۡ يَلِدۡ وَلَمۡ يُولَدۡ وَلَمۡ يَكُن لَّهُ ۥ ڪُفُوًا أَحَدٌ
He begets not, nor was He begotten. And there is none co-equal or comparable unto Him
Quran, chapter 112, verses 3 and 4
Allah (God) says in Quran:
وَإِذۡ قَالَ ٱللَّهُ يَـٰعِيسَى ٱبۡنَ مَرۡيَمَ ءَأَنتَ قُلۡتَ لِلنَّاسِ ٱتَّخِذُونِى وَأُمِّىَ إِلَـٰهَيۡنِ مِن دُونِ ٱللَّهِۖ قَالَ سُبۡحَـٰنَكَ مَا يَكُونُ لِىٓ أَنۡ أَقُولَ مَا لَيۡسَ لِى بِحَقٍّۚ إِن كُنتُ قُلۡتُهُ ۥ فَقَدۡ عَلِمۡتَهُ ۥۚ تَعۡلَمُ مَا فِى نَفۡسِى وَلَآ أَعۡلَمُ مَا فِى نَفۡسِكَۚ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ عَلَّـٰمُ ٱلۡغُيُوبِ (١١٦) مَا قُلۡتُ لَهُمۡ إِلَّا مَآ أَمَرۡتَنِى بِهِۦۤ أَنِ ٱعۡبُدُواْ ٱللَّهَ رَبِّى وَرَبَّكُمۡۚ وَكُنتُ عَلَيۡہِمۡ شَہِيدً۬ا مَّا دُمۡتُ فِيہِمۡۖ فَلَمَّا تَوَفَّيۡتَنِى كُنتَ أَنتَ ٱلرَّقِيبَ عَلَيۡہِمۡۚ وَأَنتَ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَىۡءٍ۬ شَہِيدٌ
And (remember) when Allah will say (on the Day of Resurrection): “O ‘Isa (Jesus), son of Maryam (Mary)! Did you say unto men: ‘Worship me and my mother as two gods besides Allah?’ ” He will say: “Glory be to You! It was not for me to say what I had no right (to say). Had I said such a thing, You would surely have known it. You know what is in my inner-self though I do not know what is in Yours, truly, You, only You, are The All-Knower of all that is hidden (and unseen). (116) “Never did I say to them aught except what You (Allah) did command me to say: ‘Worship Allah, my Lord and your Lord.’ And I was a witness over them while I dwelt amongst them, but when You took me up, You were the Watcher over them, and You are a Witness to all things. (This is a great admonition and warning to the Christians of the whole world).
Quran, chapter 5, verses 116-117
So my daddy, this is why we had been created!! To worship Allah (God) Alone, to submit to Him, to accept the Message and guidance which He sent down for us through the Prophet Muhammad, who is His last Messenger and Prophet, peace be upon him.
That you know and understand the Message of Islaam is the greatest wishing I have in this life, the Message which Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, came with, since it’s the Message which abolished all previous religions sent down by Allah (God), and this is His Message for all human beings:
I bear witness that there is none worthy of worship except Allah and that Muhammad is His slave and His Messenger.
My daddy, I intensely wish to see you again in this life, but I needed to convey to you this Message, since one doesn’t know when Allah will take their soul, knowing this made me to talk to you about the Message of Allah to His whole creation, which is the motive of my life, the Message which causes me to react the way you mentioned when I face adversities, the Message where my heart seeks sanctuary and solace when something saddens it.
I hope Allah will open your heart to understand my Message to you.
Your beloved daughter.